So, How Are You Feeling?

I can answer that the same way in one word every time.  Exhausted.  And now, I'm starting to panic.  Joy!  I didn't panic having one child, or when we had our second.  I knew it would be okay.  But I'm really starting to panic now that number 3 is on his way.  

I'm trying not to feel lazy when resting.  I hate that I cannot get up and down to play with the girls, though I completely remember being ecstatic the moment I got home from the hospital and could finally play with Peanut again after Bean arrived!  I've been getting winded going up a flight of stairs, so I usually take 5 minutes to go upstairs and end up having my 2 year old pass me.  It's always bad when my girls are dragging their feet and are STILL going faster than I am.

I've had a lot of friends and family tell me that they can't believe I'm still doing as much as I've been doing.  The problem is, if I don't, I feel lazy.  I am completely unmotivated.  It's like I either go 80 miles an hour or 0.  There's no in between with my motivation and it's aggravating.  I'm a bit OCD, but I've had to let a LOT go to keep my sanity.  But my house is a wreck.  I get excited when I vacuum now.  Thankfully, Peanut has started helping to pick up the toys that I cannot bend over anymore to get.  Granted, it might take me asking for over an hour, but consistency. 

Being a stay at home mom to a 2 year old (eep!  I can't believe Bean's 2 now) and a 3.5 year old is exhausting in and of itself, but add being almost 33 weeks pregnant.  Phew.  I've been told anything from "God bless you" to "wow, you must have your hands full" to "good luck".  Thankfully, I've had the "I've been there and we survived.  I don't really remember how, but we did.  You will too" and I'm holding onto that.  It's also difficult right now, because it's my hubby's busy season at work so he's traveling a lot.  Even when he's working in the office, he still has a 3 hour round trip commute assuming there's no traffic.  When he's home, he's been so great with the girls.  Peanut constantly wants to play games with him and help him with everything he does.  Bean loves to listen to him practice his music and will clap after every song and yell "YAY!"

Anyway, so if you're around me and I seem like I am suffering from ADHD, or maybe turrets, and am snappy or 'out of it', I'm sorry.  Just say an extra prayer for me.  I'm praying a lot these days.  I know these days will fly by and I'll miss them, so I'm trying to take the joy and positive from all these fun life experiences!  I have had a very uneventful pregnancy and I'm very excited to be carrying this little Nugget.  But I'm definitely ready for November to hurry up and get here.  I'm ready to meet my little boy, but I don't want him coming early.  God truly has blessed me, even if I'm exhausted, and I am thankful for all those blessings.